PnB Rock’s girlfriend is breaking her silence a month after the rap-crooner was shot dead in front of her during a robbery attempt in Los Angeles.

On Thursday, October 13, Stephanie Sibounheuang shared an Instagram post for the first time since the tragic murder of PnB’s Rock, which happened right in front of her at Roscoe’s House of Chicken ‘N Waffles in South Los Angeles on the 12th. september. the heartfelt message, she revealed that the “selfish” rhyme saved her life on that fateful day.

“I’m not 100% fine,” Sibounheuang captioned a series of videos featuring herself, PnB Rock and the couple’s young daughter. “If I wasn’t spiritual I might kill myself (but then I’ll go to hell and my man not there) My man saved my life, throwing me under this table. I’m not meant to be here but bc of him. I am. Nobody would be able to handle that. TBH, I can’t even handle that.”

She continued: “Witnessing what I saw and continuing to see it in my head, being kicked out of the restaurant, not being able to go to the ambulance or the hospital, car keys, purse and my phone was taken from me, forced into the back of a police cruiser, locked in an interrogation room all night while all of this is going on and being the last person in the world to know my man isn’t didn’t survive after having the faith and trust he was me felt this time in my relationship that everything was finally perfect for our family My man had given himself to GOD Did a full 360. He was loyal. He was patient. He was teachable and a teacher. I was finally letting the past go, and letting it show as its changed self. My last day with you. I said to you, “I know you my husband. I know you my soul mate.” Even that was for a little while. At least we got to experience what it’s like to have a soul mate…and for that…I’m grateful. You told me you hated that it took so long, you wish you had changed much sooner. it takes so much prayer and spiritual therapy to have the strength to do the simple things in life right now.”

She added: “They say your angels are coming to visit you but I feel like mine is still there so don’t stop. This life we ​​live on earth is only temporary until to go to heaven or hell. Where we will spend eternity. The only thing that matters in this short life is LOVE, everything else doesn’t matter… you can’t take NOTHING OF THESE STUFF with you. The devil is unleashed on earth. I will never understand a loss so close. I feel so empty. My world is dark now. My heart is broken for the children. Cover me with strength, with grace. and vision to carry on for the family. Bring light to this world in these dark times. Let your power overcome evil. Pain is real. No matter how rich you are, how famous you are, how you are spiritual Some pain is unavoidable.

Sibounheuang first came under fire after PnB Rock’s death after it was revealed that she allegedly posted a geotagged photo of their location and people speculated that this led to PnB Rock’s murder. The police even investigated whether or not the photo played a role in the murder. Following the arrest of three suspects involved in the murder, including a father and son, police reportedly revealed that the duo were already in the parking lot when PnB Rock and Sibounheuang arrived and did not come to the scene after being there. been driven by an Instagram post.

See the heartfelt message from PnB Rock’s girlfriend below